Yeye. recently I've been very sick. I kept crying in my bedroom because I miss you a hell lot. I was so sick I was bedridden for about 3 days. I was thinking if you were here to take me away, I would want to see you again. I miss you, you know?

Ah ma misses you doubly hard. She couldn't sleep alone now. when I was sick on the bed, she came over once to see me. She sat beside me asking if I was okay, just like she were with you on your bed. I thought I saw you too in my semi conscious. I knew you would have done the same if you had been around. you would buy my swensen ice cream in cone for me. You would stuffs 20$ into my had and say ' buy yourself good stuffs when you recover.' 

Because this rave of illness, I couldn't eat. I guess it was good too. At least it give me lesser heartache when I talk to you every time I eat. I was so afraid you couldn't enjoy these food you like anymore ): 

Just 2 weeks back I was feeding you, remember?

Are you having good food now? could you eat your favourite chocolate? or that ice cream we used to share? Do you get char kway tiao with many many cockles? Have you made new friends? or met any old ones? Or  friendly neighbours? Do send me dreams to tell me stories of your new life now. I'd love to hear. 

We just had our birthdays together, and you left me for heaven. I was really sad, thinking I wasn't comparable to heaven thats why you left so soon. Have you seen the pictures we took on our birthdays? they were beautiful. We wanted to send you some, so you could hang some on your wall. But were told its a taboo to send photos there.  )): Its a shame. You could have shown it to your old and new friends your beautiful grandchildren, they would be envious.

Wei was totally grievous you left on her birthday. She thought she jinxed you. She cried real bad. She's still too young for such. I guess she envious me most now, because I got spend my birthday with you. Hers is just 2 3weeks after us? Why didn't you wait? 

Well, at least you did spent a few hours of her birthday with her, even though you were unconscious. 

Yeye, you left too soon. 

I miss having Swensen ice cream now. Do you still remember what I like? cookies and cream. You never forgotten but you still choose to ask always. I feel I've been a failure to have devoted to Haagen daz for so long. No more Haagen daz boyfriend now. So every now and then, I'd get some Swensen and share with you. Chocolate shall do, don't it?

Ever since you were gone, everybody has been saying you've been fortunate to have us. But it has been a turmoil to know it best we haven't been the best that you could have got. I haven't. I haven't graduated for you to see. 

The worst thing I have committed is not learning teochew so I could talk to you more. It have been a hard time for you to catch up with my horrendous teochew mixed with lots of mandarin. But you always tells me I'm good. 

If only I could get this whole chunk translated into teochew, I would learn them, and bring the script to the columbarium and read to you. 

I said a prayer to the king in heaven just now, to sprinkle some magical dusts and let you read this in teochew. 

Yeye. Don't have to be worry for any of us. I've good friends with. and even though sick to the core, I'm still looking pretty (:

just a little pale. 

Yeye. All of us miss you. I'd try my best to learn some teochew so I can talk to you all the time. I just love talking to you, though it got me all teared up that hour each time.

Yeye. I think I'm a pretty Teochew, just like you.