how long hasnt i update. i know there's been a major lack of updates, but i don feel the urge to anymore. nothing pushes me to it and so not into it a as much d.
to think of it, that evil brenda just started her blog. buhh. well. some people are just a little SLOW. -grin

i am as happy with boyfriend as ever. other than the fact that he smokes. AND I JUST CAUGHT HIM RED-HANDED TODAY. of course i shouted his name from across the entire ground. signalled to that highly-toxicated paper roll that already laid perfectly neatly in between of his lips, point the perfect finger and a perfect stare. BINGO. -snap. my perfectboyfriend's jaw dropped.
uh huh. alright, get things clear. im not trying to be domineering. i just DONT LIKE HIM TO SMOKE. he promised he wont smoke as much. okie i know its hard. i know its hard on him. seeing him feeling not-good i dont feel good too. but its all for his own good. and it just show that he's been smoking as much behind me, and behaving so well in front of me. for a moment i dont know how much else could he have hid from me. ): althogh i know he wouldnt. i trust him.totally. nah.im not sad. im just a little.disappointed?

life is about coming and going. nothing stays forever. but what is when its what you have spent your whole life holding tight onto. like a kite we tried so hard to make it fly, the string snapped, and it flew far, far away.

"tell him not to worry, he will be alright. when i grow up i'll take him around the world. he'll live to the day" -adapted from beatrice, my sis.
everytime i read this to myself, i cry once.

'i will too yeye.we'll go Hong Kong for dim sum and shopping.we'll go Taiwan to eat. we'll go China and explore all our history. we'll go Disney Land and take pictures with cinderella.we'll go Barcelona and you watch me walking down the aisle in the long-lived chapel. wait for me."

as long as you make me stay. i'll never leave.

;i am afraid